May 4, 2023

I took over a week off from , well… pretty much everything and now I’m back and it’s Spring and I’m overwhelmed and kinda in love with everything 💛

There were a lot of really valuable lessons in silence and sobriety and alone time. There were a lot of intense moments too.

Feeling alone, even after friends brought me medicine and hugs and love.

Feeling utterly not like “myself”.

Spiraling and losing track of time and falling asleep in the middle of the good part in the book.

Wishing for fun and parties and sparkles and life while feeling too sick to even peel myself off my couch.

And I’m not writing any of this as a pity party (I mean. Maybe a little, but more as a means of reflection…).

The point of all of this, the lesson I learned was (drumroll please 🥁):

I hadn’t been practicing what I preach. I preach rest. And fun. And play. I preach that we release to-do lists and timelines. I preach and deeply believe that unstructured relaxation and time doing nothing is DEEPLY valuable. Maybe the most valuable thing of all.

I lead retreats where I encourage women (and men!) to allow themselves unstructured time. I coach people to be the deepest, most embodied versions of themselves. I teach yoga for the same reason. In fact, I even tour guide with the same intention: relax, do a little less, we’ll hit the highlights but let’s appreciate the little things too ⭐️

And I hadn’t fully given myself space or time to marinate in releasing life’s “shoulds” in a while.

So here I am. Coming back to life. Celebrating spring and sunshine and il dolce far niente.

I’m feeling creative and honest and authentic and inspired these days. I’m feeling ready for a summer filled with magic.

Finally: I’m curious what YOU desire? What inspires you? What makes you feel tingly and alive?