July 29, 2023
Can we trust the process and reach high even when we feel unsteady?
Can we trust ourselves to find inner (and outer) balance?
In February I went on a BIG trip. To Namibia, one of the most vast + desolate countries on the planet. And it changed me, as big trips often do.
Not pictured: 5+ hours of hiking, my hiking boots completely falling apart in the last 15 minutes of the hike, the fact that I didn’t quite make it to the top, the chains I used to scale across deep crevices in the rocks, the fear that gurgled in my belly, the absolute total trust I had in both the tour guide and @jamesbelgrave that I’d be all right. The joyous little girl inside me who used to hate being dragged on hiking trips (and my family hiked all the time growing up!) and now reveled in my own body and the safety I felt in it.
My feeling of being out of control and surrendering to it.
That safety is what I’m thinking about today.
Safety and trusting the process.
This year has been so utterly different on paper than it has felt in my head.
On social media: A #dreamlife of extended vacations (Namibia, Marrakech, a boat on the Mediterranean for a week, my day-to-day in Rome) and leading two AMAZING retreats.
In real life: I’ve deepened old friendships and kindled gorgeous new ones, I’ve surrounded myself with women who inspire me, I’ve showered praise on women and (hopefully) inspired them.
In my head: This is all chaos and it’s never going to work. I’m going to fail. I can’t trust anything. Ugh. I’ve officially got a #brand and that brand is me. We have a logo! We have a color palette! We have a mission statement! We have an inconsistent boss (me). We have a million things to do and create and put out into the world.
We’d rather lay around naked, daydreaming.
I hate being an entrepreneur. I’m trying to learn to love it.
Can I trust the process even though I feel unsteady? Yes. I can. I will.
You can, too.
Want support? Come on a retreat. Or book a 1-on-1. The links are in my bio. Also: Stay tuned for community events in the fall (live ones and online ones).
Sending big love from my living room floor in Rome (naked + daydreaming here today ✨)