May 18, 2022
Sunset last night
Thinking about: being in the twilight period of a phase of life.
It’s been years now.
Years that I’ve known that it was time to change jobs. Years that I was wondering what that would look like. Years of self-doubt and not believing I could be: a yoga teacher, a retreat leader, a writer, and most recently- a somatic coach.
It’s been about 5 years that I’ve turned over these options in my head (and a million other ones too).
It’s been over two years since a global pandemic upended life as we know it.
It’s been two years since I started to believe that maybe, just maybe, I could live a life that involved less doing, and more being.
Two years without the constant sensation of feeling like I’m one tour away from losing my voice.
Two years, well spent. I taught more yoga than ever, I led wellness retreats across Europe. I made new friends who have become family. I became the woman I am today, in two years.
Or 35. Depends on how you look at it
And now the world is opening back up. The travel industry is booming. Rome is teeming with visitors. And guess what??
They. All. Want. Tours.
So? I’m working as a tour guide again. And it feels good. And weird. And familiar. It feels like comfortable slippers or an old bath robe that’s cozier than ever and it’s filled with holes.
And I admit: those slippers and bathrobes are comfy, but I’m in the twilight of my tour guide career.
I’m feeling more intentional about when I say yes, when I say no. More intentional with my time, and with my voice.
And guess what? I’m relishing the tours that I am doing. Enjoying sharing this beautiful city. Enjoying how much she (Rome) is appreciated.
This is a long post and it’s just my story. Im terrified of leaving tour guiding, not only is it my primary income (important) but I also still love it. And yet, it’s time.
This yes, no, yes, no has me realizing:
-We’re all in a brand new era in this 2022 reality.
What things are you holding onto that you can release? What are they holding you back from, currently? What might lie on the other side of that letting go?
