April 5, 2020

I’m feeling it too, y’all.
Moments of joy and feeling optimistic can shift quickly into flashes of sheer panic. There’s a heaviness of the unknown perfectly contrasted by the lightness and brightness of the arrival of spring.
Inertia and then huge bursts of energy. There are moments where I am truly enjoying this quarantine, this pause, this reset, this space. I have moments of gratitude. Deep gratitude. I am grateful for the roof over my head, the food in my belly, security, the internet. I am grateful for my social network all around the world. I am grateful for yoga and meditation to calm down my mind when it gets crazy and reaches in directions that don’t make sense.
And yet, this is still hard. And there are some days that are harder than others. There are days where one phone call makes everything in quarantine life spin out of control. There are days where the tiniest annoyance grinds through your brain relentlessly. There are days when a to-do list seems futile. There are days where I eat standing up in the kitchen, as if I’m in a rush and can’t make it to the table. I’d like to think we’ve all had those days (someone back me up here 😂). I’m aware of my privilege in this quarantine and I recognize that for some people every single day is hard in this social distancing, in this epically unexpected crazy period of time for humanity. So, I am grateful. And I’m sending so much love and light to everyone who is hating this and to everyone who is relishing in it too. My hope is that we’ll all look back and realize that (despite being one of the strangest springs ever) things continue to blossom